Tuesday 14 July 2015

GOING HOME



first of all, i praise to Allah for every moment sorrow and joy that make me grow up. alhamdulillah. it's about time that i will go home. sedar tak sedar ramadan dah hampir ke penghujung dan syawal bakal tiba. and first time tahun ni rasa raya ku sangat simple. yelah dengan tak balik kampung pun lagi. for the first time i supposed going home for eid just about 2 days or 3 days before. time sekolah dulu seminggu sebelum raya dah selamat berkampung dekat rumah. persiapan bukan main. tapi sekarang aku rasa itu semua tak penting. seriously i don't even care how many pairs of the cloth, what is the theme colour, what kind of shoes, " sandal or flat shoe. scarf or what so ever. aku just beli jubah je sepasang tu pun sebelum sambung belajar. hari tu mak hantar gambar baju, and i was like, ikutlah. tak kesah. aku just rasa boleh gather with the family's member is more than enough. and this raya is kind of empty  every since there would be no more of my nenek. may Allah protect and ease her there. 

malam ni, in shaa Allah kalau tak ada apa-apa, selamat lah sampai terengganu. seriously rindu keluarga. rindu nak gaduh nge adik. yeah, that is the part i miss the most. even, we would fight but no matter what is, i love my brother so much since we are the siblings. and for my mom, i really miss her to the the moon and back, i miss her blabbering, her voice, yeah, the point is i miss everything in terengganu. the food, the culture, the moment, my friendss.. anyway, i feel sad somehow that the ramadan would say goodbye.why? because when i was here, ramadan is the only time when i could go to the mosque. since that would be the time where most of muslimat go. ever since before ramdan the number is just too "nice".  and we never know, would we meet the most barakah month next year. 

anyway, ramdan is not over yet, so do everything to make up the regrets later. use the time well. and do enjoy the syawal as it is our 'kemenangan' . anyway, may Allah bless us for every single good deed we have done. 

"even the pathway to you is kind of thorny, but please, do guide me ,Allah. i got no one else to ask except from you. please don't thrown away far from you. i need your hep, your guide to be the the better muslimat.."

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Saturday 11 July 2015

A START OF EVERYTHING




alhamdulillah. syukur sebab masih boleh bernafas. sedar tak sedar RAMADAN dah nak sampai ke penghujung. kejap je masa berlalu. apapun, meskipun RAMADAN dah berbaki berapa hari je lagi. still proceed with our ibadah. in shaa Allah. anyway, aku still lagi di perantauan. ada baki 3 hari lagi baru balik kampung. kelas dah hari khamis yang last. jadinya mereputlah dalam bilik siapkan assignment dan layan movie. housemate dah selamat balik kampung pagi tadi. jadi malam ni alone lah nampaknya. sedar tak sedar dah sebulan lebih aku jauh dari family. kalau zaman sekolah dulu even stay asrama still aku balik hujung minggu. jadi adalah time boleh berbuka dengan family. tapi yelah, everything change goes by time right? jadi this is something new for me and i am trying adapt . jumpa family last hari daftar uni. 

alam uni totally different dengan alam sekolah. dekat sini, kau jaga hal kau, aku jaga hal aku. everything is on your own people. tapi alhamdulillah i got people that i can blend well for the time being. alhamdulillah Allah pertemukan aku dengan kakak dan kawan yang boleh aku katakan family here? setiap pertemuan tu bukannya satu kebetulan tapi dah dirancang Allah. there is something that Allah plan just for you.


my family here. may Allah bless you sister and friend. bersyukur sangat sebab dipertemukan dengan mereka. at least they would be there when i was lost in the journey to find the truth of life. sebab Kak Nik cakap "fungsi kita berkumpul adalah untuk saling ingat mengingati. kita keluarga. "
 
  

my course mate. this picture taken when we were out to survey for our assignment. even we might different in every way, hope we can still blend together in the name of friendship.


the day yang sangat meletihkan. ke proton city mengayuh basikal di hari puasa. eventhough it was really tiring till we were dripping sweat, but still it a moment to remember. this is just a start of making memories between all of us. the journey is still far ahead so, take your grip and move along the way. 

even, sometimes i would be really introvert. shy enough to start the conversation but still i would try to blend with them. alhamdulillah dah jumpa geng yang boleh layan  perangai tak cukup skrew aku ni. that what were we said, "travel away from your comfort zone and try something new" yes, that what i was working on. and i hope i would turn out well soon. 

"...nothing last FOREVER, so LIVE it up. drink it down, laugh it off, avoid DRAMA. take chances and never have regrets because at one time everything you did was exactly you wanted."

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